rambling-on

Now that I'm in myfifties..some thoughts...

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 19:18:31 +0100

well..I've worn saddle oxfords, peddle pushers, hot pants, short shorts, bell bottoms, elephant bells, hip huggers, tye dye shirts, halter tops and bikinis..love beads, hoop earrings, peace symbols and patches on my jeans..earth shoes, jesus sandles and platform shoes ..polyester pants suits and Maxi coats..Mini skirts and blue jean skirts made from pants..now days..I still favor my blue jeans ( bell bottomed no less but they call em boot cut now days) and t-shirts..occasionally a dress or skirt if its got a hippy feel to it.

My hairs been shagged and poodled, straight and long ,teased and poofed or juj (Jacked up to Jesus)...short and mulletted..and now its back to long and has a few gray hairs mingled in for spice..hehehe...

I saw the beatles and the Doors on ed sullivan and now days..I watch the MTV music awards..I saw the first Saturday night live and the last episode of MASH..I watched gilligan finally get off that damn island..and Elvis's come back in black leather and lookin damn sexy...and then I watched as the country morned his death and then claimed it was a hoax.. watched the funeral procession of JFK and read all about Marlyn Monroes death..I watched the monkees and the partridge family and the six million dollar man..(always wondered why he made that noise everytime he ran)

I played Red Rover and dodgeball, red light green light, simon says and tag ...I had the first barbie,which my cousin gave a hair cut.. a hula hoop and an easy bake oven.. was great at marbles and jacks..I passed go and collected 200 dollars and got aggrevated and even built a better mouse trap...I rode bikes and played in the cemetary..waded in the creek and climbed rocks and caught lighting bugs on summer nights.. bought penny candy and pushups for a dime..helped my gran put the green stamps in her books and shopped from the spiegel man that came to the house every week with his truck full of wonderful stuff..

my doctor came to the house when I had pnuemonia and I got my small pox vaccine but didn't end up with that scar on my shoulder..and loved getting the sugar cube with the polio vaccine in it..it made up for the shots..hahaha I had big measles and discovered that putting noxema on them DID NOT HELP.

David Cassidy and Donny Osmond hung on my walls and I carried my transistor radio with me every where..I played 45's and albums on my record player ...Now I pop Jim morrison into the cd player and watch pink floyd on the high def...

I watched a man walk on the moon and then I saw a shuttle explode after take off..I watched the vietnam war and now the war in Irag..

I watched Rock hudson kiss Doris Day and then years later found out he had been gay all along and was dying of aides..a sad way to have to come out of the closet..

Rob and laura , Ozzie and harriet slept in seperate beds... now madonna kisses britney on live tv...

At my grandmas, we had a rotary dial phone with a cord that wouldn't even reach the couch and now we carry a cell phone everywhere we go...

I watched three channels on tv back in the 60's and yes..I watched flipper and now I have 300...and still can't find something worth watching..and the president still takes over the three main channels..hahaha

I skipped school..snuck into bars at 16 and yep..smoked behind the high school gym (and now.. again.. I have to hide behind buildings to smoke)...I smoked a few joints and tried acid and basically found out that I don't need that crap to enjoy life.

I got married and had two kids then got divorced
and got a job and worked at the single parent gig . Thankfully my kids never got on Oprah and came out fairly well adjusted adults..well darn close anyway.

I've been to a rainbow family reunion that made me feel like I had stepped back in time to the 60s and I've made love in a field in a sleeping bag under the stars..had my heart broken more times than I care to think about and broke a couple myself ...I've been to concerts..from Elvis to Garth brooks and I've seen more movies than I care to admit..but the first scary movie I ever saw was the Birds and I remember hiding my head under the covers and freaking out for days if a bird even flew in my general direction..

I've made bad choices and good ones..rash decisions and smart ones..But I wouldn't change any thing and I don't regret my choices...I've lived, laughed (alot..at myself mostly) and loved the best I could...I guess..all in all..its not been a bad 50 years...

Oh and I guess the things I've learned so far...is..

the more things change..the more they stay the same...

Don't go into a relationship thinking you can change someone..remember along with their good points..their faults also play an important part in making them the person you love...and truly..time does change a person..so..be patient..hahaha

Talk to your kids..alot..be honest with them..respect how they feel..even if it seems trivial to you..to them..it is earth shattering and remind them that everyone makes mistakes..the point is that you try and you learn...But Mostly..talk to them..take them seriously and love them..they really do grow up so fast and are adults before you know it..and it is really hard to ground them when that happens..I know..I've tried..hahaha..they ignore me on that..hahaha

let go...when its not working..no matter how hard you have tried, let go..don't hang on to a bad situation whether it be a marrage or job or anything..if its making you unhappy to your very core..let go..gently and with as much dignity as possible but..let go...

Revenge, regret and hanging on to old hurts, anger and painful memories serve no purpose..they just eat away at you and make you bitter and miserable..again..let it go..

and mainly..I've learned that you can't make someone else happy and they can't make you happy..that is something only you can do for yourself..love yourself..faults and all..looks and all..treat others as you wish to be treated and accept no less from them..and If someone can't accept you for who you are then maybe..just maybe they shouldn't be in your life to begin with..This life thing..it really is short and there are no do overs..so do the best you can and remember that we all make mistakes..thats how we learn and grow..Love to your fullest..Laugh your loudest and reach out a hand to someone when you can..it will do more for you than them in the long run...

Oh and I am pretty sure..the hokey pokey is what its all about...

time to return

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 18:20:11 +0100

For sometime now, I have found myself losing touch with my spirtual path...life has been very hectic of late and it seems that at the time I need it most..I have pulled away from it. All though I was brought up in the church and have always had an instinctual believe in God and Jesus Christ..I also found myself questioning the Bible and all the religious dogma that surrounds it. For the longest time I didn't know what path I was on . I had always found solice and peace in nature..taking walks, I would find myself speaking to God and feeling that he heard me. I never felt that in a church..for me my church became the lake near our home, the woods, my cathedral was the star filled sky. Nor did I feel that I needed to profess my love of god to a church full of people to make me feel that I was a christian..yet some do need that and I respect that..if it works for them..thats all that matters..as for me..thanks to stumbling on a few books and then a few websites..I finally found that my beliefs..the things that ring true for me are more nature based. So now I embrace the path of the Trinitarian Witch. I still believe in the power of God..to me a spell is just a prayer and vice versa..both require faith, energy and the believe that they will work.

I plan on getting back to my path..to share the knowledge I hold true and continue to seek wisdom . I will be posting things that I find informative and inspiring, helpful and useful. I hope you'll come back and join me as I follow the path of the ancients .

Wiccan Pathways

Tue, 07 Aug 2012 18:49:27 +0100

Wiccan Mabon / Fall Equinox Sabbat

Solitary Ritual Guide

On September 21st, Wiccans and other pagans celebrate Mabon, the Fall Equinox.

This sabbat, decorate for fall, honor the harvest, and reflect on passages and balance in life.
Adorn the home with fall colors.Table cloths,, flowers, centerpieces, and items from the wild can be part of a fall equinox display. Now is the time to bring in cones, acorns, and horse chestnuts to show off the rich browns of the fall’s bounty. It’s time to choose pumpkins and make pies, pick apples, and enjoy the last of the season’s ripe corn. Visit a farm or peruse the fresh, seasonal produce at a local market before winter begins to descend. At the table, bless the harvest time through seasonal prayers, songs and rhymes.

Decorate the Home With Bounty From An Equinox

Walk In The Garden

A walk in the garden this time of year means enjoying the changing colors of the leaves. Flowers and vegetables are setting seeds. Pick them and save them for the new year.

Pagans and Wiccans can also string up herbs and seeds in the home to decorate. Plan for a healthy winter in the garden. Add mulch and begin to cover crops that need to last a little longer into the frosty days.

Drink and Make Wine, Cider, and Beer to Celebrate

Fall

Grapes and apples are ripe – now is the time for wine and cider. Drink wine and make it to celebrate the harvest. Visit a farm and pick apples, or honor the grain harvest by making beer.

Mabon is a Time To Honor Those Who Have Died

As the northern hemisphere descends into darkness, it is important to honor the darkness that has touched lives this year. What deaths and other passages have happened? Honor the dead. Visit a burial site and place fall flowers, or hold a ritual in a meaningful natural location.

Fall Equinox is a Time to Appreciate the Stability of the

Home

Fall equinox is also a time to consider the stability and balance of the home. Think about the year that has passed. What has made home life more or less stable? Think about the year to come. What changes can be made? Mabon is a good time to set plans in motion for the new year – traditions that will add to the stability of home and hearth. Whether it’s a daily prayer, a walk, or a home blessing, plan one thing that will create a rich tradition for the home this year.

For Wiccans and other pagans, sabbats are a time of personal reflection. Think about the meaning of balance and the idea of harvest in life. This is a time when people can consider how they are reaping what they have sowed in the months and years before. Mabon is a time to appreciate the turning of the year towards the dark. Fall equinox is a celebration of the local harvest and of the harvests in the home.

Pagan traditions for Halloween or Samhain are so rich that it is easy to forget about the other fall Sabbat – Mahon, the fall equinox. This is a less prominent pagan holiday of the fall season, but it’s a chance to celebrate the continuing harvest and richness of the year, while preparing for the darkness of the late fall and winter months.

On Mabon, the coming of fall means that day and night are equally divided. Night is about to overcome the light as the year turns towards the winter solstice.